Friday, March 5, 2010

just because...

I haven't updated my blog lately b/c to be honest-we have been very busy!
 Not to mention, I don't enjoy blogging as much when I just write, and have no pictures.
 I feel like then there is too much pressure on what I am saying and how I am writing=)
 But I don't like going a long time without updating my blog either so I guess
 that's what brought me here. I decided to go for it and write a blog without pictures.
 I hope that is alright! Most people just blog their writings and don't even add pictures,
 so I guess this shouldn't be too hard.

I feel like time is going by so very fast. Every day that is over makes me feel
closer to what's coming, and that is-moving. It's going to be a very difficult thing,
 to pack up and leave (for the 3rd time since we've been married!) but this time its going
 to be much farther away. I wish I could spend more time with my family and friend while
 they are close, but life and school is getting in the way of that. I am however, looking
 forward to the summer and getting to hopefully spend a lot of quality time with them.
 I know Galveston is only 5 hours away, but with the busy lives we all lead,
 5 hours to drive somewhere makes it that much more difficult to get there on a
frequent basis. So I think I will find myself looking forward to holidays
even more than usual!

Just so everyone knows-we are actually 'moving' to Galveston in June...
the week after school gets out. Why so early? Well its sort of a two-fold reason.
1. b/c our lease at our apartment is up on June 8th so we kind of have to get out and
2. b/c Jordan will start his COT (Commissioned Officer Training) for the Air Force
 at the end of June and it will go through the end of July. When he gets back from
that (which is in San Antonio) we will then 'settle in' at our place in Galveston
 (which we haven't found or looked for yet..) And school will start for both
of us around the middle of August. (which I am still looking for a job-please pray!)

The reason I titled this blog, 'countercultural' is because its the name of a series
of a Bible study I have been recently embarking on...now, let me first say
that I am FAR from countercultural, I feel I still have a long way before I am truly
living that out. I may be in 'certain' areas-maybe how I treat/listen to my husband and dress..
.but when it comes to matters of the heart I think I am hardly countercultural. I am certainly
working on it though. I realized in this time of my life where the winds of change are coming
hard, that this is a blessing and not something to be upset or worried about. I heard a small,
 but profound statement:
 'Anything that makes me NEED God, is a blessing'
these are words I cling to, and I am finding them to be indeed true. I also
appreciate the 'reality checks' I get frequently from God when I see the
other hardships my friends and family are going through, or about to go through
that are far more challenging than anything I might be feeling or going through at
the moment. And while I realize the reason we are moving is a HUGE blessing,
 an answer to much prayer and the completion of many years of Jordan's HARD work,
 it is still going to be difficult to move away from family, friends and my job and for us
to be on our own. It is certainly a bittersweet thing=)  Either way, I am praying for
strength and striving to be that perfect picture that God sees me as because of what 
Christ has done-to truly live out who I am in Him. How long will it take me to get there?
 How many hardships and trials will I need to go through to get to that point?
Well, it will probably take my whole life (and I still won't get there!), and many
more trials, but its definetely something worth fighting for, seeking out and living for.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thanks for being genuine, Rachel! I enjoyed reading this post. Don't get me wrong, I always like looking at your pictures too, but it's good to read about what's on your heart right now. :) See you tonight!

~Lauren

Casey & Lauren Coats said...

yep, good blog. i like no pictures every now and then. sometimes it feels good to just write. :) you didn't name the blog countercultural, though, like you said. it's named 'just because.' heehee.